Friday, October 31, 2014

To be Honest... / What's up with Anne #2

  I know I am a very bad blogger and I haven't been posting for a while. and that's kind of the main rule for a blogger, to be consistent, right? I'm very sorry you guys.. But in this post I am going to be informing you about some stuff that has been happening in my life lately.


  As you know, i got an offer to dance on Dancing With The Stars, and if you read my previous post then you know the issue about the dress. first of, it's pretty expensive and second, it's quite open and revealing. I wouldn't have a problem with that but, here's a thing. we are about to get personal. I have a problem and it has been going on for years now. I have acne on my back and chest. I am always trying to cover it up and I always wear tops that don't show my chest, back and even shoulders. This post is for people that suffer from this too, don't think that you're alone in this. at first i thought it was a rare problem, but when I opened my eyes and looked around I saw that it was pretty common especially at my age. I've been to multiple doctors and took multiple medications but nothing really worked. I kinda gave up in the end and it didn't bother me much, until summer came. I was embarrassed to take my shirt off and sit on the beach in a bathing suit. I had to swim in a cropped top. not many people know this about me. I cover it up pretty well. but it hurts when I open up to a person and they make a comment about it. I hate it when people are just coming up to me and asking why I have it, only if i knew. Because of the age? something wrong with my insides? I don't know. but here you go, now you know me better than most people do. and please if you see a person like me don't ask them, now you know how they feel about it. people's opinion matter to me , however hard i try not to care, i do care in the end. So if a person is exposing it, that means he's brave. and don't judge and as JoshuaDTV says - be kind to people. 
Autumn Breeze

Saturday, October 25, 2014

Anne on Dancing With the Stars? / What's up with Anne #1

  Hello guys, so this time I don't have a beauty post for you guys as well. But I really want to tell you all what has been going on in my life lately. So first of all I downloaded The Sims 4. like what? did i pay 70$ or something for the game? nope, I didn't. I downloaded from the web for free.My friend actually downloaded the game and helped me do it. The friend is Katherine by the way, I have mentioned her in my previous posts, and I can not skip the fact that I am super grateful to her for helping me download The Sims 4. So she watched this video on youtube that was step by step instructions on how to install the game, so the funny thing is that the day after I downloaded it fully the video was deleted.
     the second news are that I might be on dancing with the stars. our group will be opening the episode. I am not 100% sure though. ( if you are not sure how that is even possible click here ) It depends on the dress that I'm going to wear because I wouldn't want to be on tv in a bikini, I am not that confident in my body. so basically these are the news and I really want to ask you for a favor. can you please write some topics that you want to me to post about, cause I don't have much time to put a lot of thought in my posts lately. 

 Thank you all so much for reading , don't forget to leave a comment

No Name Sans Regular

Tuesday, October 21, 2014

Iphone Wallpaper

This post was inspired by the one that 'Urban foot print blog' posts called IPHONE WALLPAPERS
so make sure to check out their blog as well.

Sunday, October 19, 2014

Blogging Tips

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  If you are a blogger or you want to be one this post is probably going to be very useful for you.
I've been blogging for about 5 years. First I had a separate blog that was completely about lifestyle and I am not going to link it here because it's just embarrassing , I mean I was 11 years old or something. Next we created a blog with my best friend Katherine who actually introduced me to blogger at the beginning. We have been posting for a couple years and it was a lot of fun at first and we pretended that somebody actually read it, when in reality we have been posting for ourselves- therefore it was like a diary. By the end I saw that we started gaining followers and I really wanted to post about beauty and fashion but my friend got really annoyed by that so I wasn't able to post about stuff i liked most of the time. so on the second year she stopped posting at all and I kinda forced her to post because I put a lot of work into the blog and tried to come up with cool topics and designs and I don't like to force people to do stuff they don't like to do, so, after a month of hesitation I decided to create my own blog - the one you are reading right now. I was really shady and didn't tell Katherine that i had my own blog, because she thought once we both give up posting on our blog we might as well stop being friends. But of course we didn't. I told her later on and now we are still best friends and our friendship is stronger than ever. I love her very much but I just needed freedom and here's an advice from me. You and your best friend might not always have similar tasted and opinions about small details, for example i would really like if she were into youtube videos as much as I am but she is not. oh well, what can i do at least we love and respect each other for who we are and we are not gonna force each other to change, by any means. I don't know why I included this story of my blogging in this post at all. but you can skip that part of the post and get straight to business.
   btw I am going to link my old blog in the end of this post.

 so first tip is to connect your blogger to google+. I noticed that my audience has grown up a lot since i did that,  I gained a lot of followers and readers through google+

now let's talk about the interface of your blog. in my opinion it should be reflection of you. The main thing in that is for you to like it. It should have your favorite colors maybe, i know mine does. I think that a huge role has the header of the blog. For creating cool headers I use mostly picmonkey. or sometimes I might use pixlr editor. I download my photos from weheartit.

Most of the things I learnt about blogger is from pinterest just type in Blogger and thousands of articles will pop out.

 I also have another post about this click here to check it out.

Check out my previous blog - Katannie

KG Wake Me Up Regular

Tuesday, October 14, 2014

My playlist

My favorite songs of 2014.
 Let's see if we have similar taste is music. Please comment down below if you know any of these songs. I'd love to know and maybe you know some awesome songs that you want to recommend ?
btw. I think this picture describes my best friend Sally - Perfectly. and you should definitely check out her blog Sally's
Echosmith - cool kids 
Jayme Dee - I will Follow You into the Dark
Kina Grannis - Someone else's Heart
John Newman - Cheating 
GroupLove -Let me in
The Weepies - Happiness 
Troye Sivan - The Fault in our stars
Troye Sivan - Happy little pill
Faul ft. Wad ad - Changes 
Clean Bandit - Rather be 
Tove Lo - Stay High
Brandon & Leah - Life Happens
The Mowgli's - Say it, just say it
We the kings - Say you like me
Taylor swift - Shake it off
Jann Arden - You don't know me 
5sos - Amnesia
Sia - Chandelier 
Ellie Goulding - Burn
Ed Sheeran - Thinking out loud
John Newman - Love me again 
Charity Vance - picture perfect 
Ed Sheeran - I see fire
Charli XCX- Boom clap 
Ed Sheeran - Don't
Those Dancing days - I'll be yours
Rachael Yamagata - Be be your love 
Natasha Bedingfield - Unwritten
Alana Grace - Black roses red 
Birdy - skinny love
Birdy - Tee-shirt 
and basically all of Ed sheeran's songs ...

Thank you so much for reading. Please don't forget to comment! and let me know if you want me to post my playlist for every month.

Sunday, October 12, 2014

Only Teardrops

 I wrote this story 1 year ago or something. It's embarrassing.. I thought it would be entertaining for you guys to read this and know what kind of a child i was.  I know It's very dump and short but here you go.                                                       

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                                              Only Teardrops
     Now I’m sitting in a car. All alone until he returns. It felt exciting but now I feel ruined. It’s like Why did I make it? Even though I knew I was standing on thin ice, I knew it would break, but I didn’t care.  The question is “am I happy now?” Well as you see not really. He is getting closer to the car, I see him coming out of the building. I’m trying to dry my face with hands but more and more tears are appearing from nowhere. My jaw is trembling, if he asks something I wouldn’t be able to let off any word from my mouth. Here he is, opening the door. He winds up the car, we are both silent.
         Ugh, I haven’t told you who he is or who I am. But believe me I’m even in a bigger misunderstanding. Okay, Let’s move to the very beginning.
          Here it is – the start. I’m sitting in a train, coming to Colorado. First time without any adult.  My mom thought I would become independent during this trip. I was going to study in a collage. This made me feel like a real student. Actually that was not really popular and not at all expensive place.  That’s why I was here. From the first day I knew I would start working somewhere to have my own pocket money. The trip itself was tiring. As I was alone, I had to sit with a fat, sweaty man-who after every fifteen minutes went to toilet and always stepped on my foot. I wished I had enough money to travel by plane. I remember this day as if it was yesterday: me getting out of the train on the station where no one meets me, but still my heart was full of endless hopes and excitement.  My luggage wasn’t heavy at all, only a backpack and a small bag for passport and ticket.
    I took a taxi. Wait… no, I went there by bus.- It appears I don’t remember this day good enough.
and finally I came to the campus where everything started.
     my room was a mess. A woman who showed me my room said she was mistaken and my room was next to it. I went inside. Lay down on already my bed and remembered that I should’ve called mom when I arrived. I took out my phone but nobody answered on my calls. I went outside, in to the hall. Found toilet, I washed my hands and face with the freezing water and looked in to the mirror.
“you new here?” – asked a girl putting makeup in front of the mirror next to mine. 
“too obvious?”-I looked and her.
“will you come with us?” –she asked smiling.
“wait, I thought it was forbidden to leave the building after 10 pm..” – I answered.
“Who cares! Besides we don’t just go out we’ll climb down by the fire escape.”
I knew I needed friends here so I agreed. I knew they wouldn’t wait for me to change my clothes. We climbed down the stairs and waited for the rest of the people.
“What’s your name by the way?” –I dared to ask her.
“Oh, I forgot. My name’s Vida and that’s Lace.”-she pointed on a blond-haired girl.
“Lace like crisps?” I laughed. But soon understood on their expressions- my joke wasn’t really cool.
Finally several guys came. We caught a Taxi. During the trip I didn’t even think to ask where we were going.
“What about you? What’s your name?” –asked Vida.
“Anne. “ –I answered. After ten minutes we stopped near the night club. I immediately lost Vida and lace in the crowd. The music was deafening. I started dancing not to look like a nerd. Finally I saw a bar.
 “something without alcohol”- I ordered, but barmen just laughed and went to another client.
“they doesn’t have drinks without alcohol” – said guy who was sitting next to me, who I didn’t notice when I sat here.
“May I order a drink for you, please?” –he offered with a husky voice. I was looking at him a bit surprised, he was the first person I had a wish to talk to. He had brown hair, dark eyes and wide smile. I saw a cocktail in his hands, he seemed drunk – but it was awkward to refuse him.
    We drank and talked.. I bet we were just sitting staring stupidly and laughing. I drank too much.  He moved me up closer, lifted me, placed my legs around his hips and kissed me. I don’t remember what happened next. But I woke up in the toilet and found out that I’ve lost my money, self-respect and virginity.  I hadn’t got enough time to realize these all. I ran to the campus, Thanks god I had enough brain to climb up by fire escape. I took some things and ran to the collage as fast as I can.  Totally I didn’t imagine my first day to be like this.
x   x   x 
“Hey Anne, I lost you when we went inside yesterday.. where were you?” –asked Vida after lessons.
“I saw her. She went out with a hot guy. And seemed drunk.” –added Lace.
“no I wasn’t d..” –I couldn’t finish.
“come on!  People can hide all the things except two : One that they’re in love and second that they are drunk.
x   x   x 
Before the bell one teacher gave me his number to call him If I had some problems with teachers or studying. I wondered if he was just anxious.  But whatever I needed to make friends and even more to make people like it, that’s why I never refused anything.
x   x   x
“you learn really quickly” –said Vida coming in to my room. It seemed I impressed her with my behavior, but I acted as if I haven’t understood what she was talking about.
“what do you mean?” I asked.
“I mean : I thought you were too shy and frightened of the world but appears you are a naughty girt! That’s why I am happy to invite you with us tonight as well.”

     every night clubbing with Vida and Lace became an adventure full of extreme.  But then, something even more unusual happened. They decided to make a race. I sat in the car that Vida was driving. 
    “Haha! I’ll show them! Yooohoo” and she pulled the treadle. We drove really fast to the center-Where she took out a pill. “do you want it?” she asked smiling.
“You are on drugs?” – I couldn’t cover my astonishment.
“Come on it will be fun. I have even more here.”  Of course this time I kept refusing her.
when we passed the street we saw a police car. That meant Vida had huge problems. As she realized that she started crying.
“They’ll catch me. Already fourth time! I won’t escape so easily now!” she was weeping and swallowing her tears “Oh god besides I’m pregnant! What should I do?!”
I understood my problems were nothing. I took a pill from her hand and make her change our places as we stopped. The policeman looked in to the car and made me follow him. of course things that happened next were very predictable.
     I was closed in jail. For 24 hours. That was the information I was told. “if I don’t go to the college tomorrow and if they know I was here, they will throw me out and that’s for sure” – I knew  that.
the policeman told me to call my parents but that was nonsense. I checked my pockets and found a crushed paper with the teacher’s number. I took out the phone.
“I’m listening”- I heard him. I was too ashamed to raise a voice. 
“I’m sorry sir, I’m your student. They caught me in jail and I can’t call my parents. So..”
“That’s your problem” –he hung up the phone. 
   now I seriously didn’t know what to do. I knew It was over. I had to return home.  I understood, girls gave me those pills always when I was drunk, they said they were from headache.
to my surprise soon a policeman let me go. I understood. He, my teacher.. came. He told me to sit in to his car, and went inside to pay the penalty - and we returned to the beginning of my story,
    in the middle of the trip I finally dared to say. I answered to his questions and he understood It all was not my fault.
after that accident he started to care about me. He was always protecting me  and gave advises.
sometimes I even thought I fell in love with him.
  You are probably interested what happened next. Well, we started dating. I was seventeen and he was 28.  He always reminded me the main character from “pride and prejudice” and he always laughed when I called him “my Darcy”. After several years I graduated from university and started a journalism career. I was 21 when I got pregnant. I forgot about everything even about my husband and myself, I was always thinking of this child.  But when I went to the doctor it appeared that my child was dead.. and these all because of my drugs. And for what?
   Of course after that I told my husband I didn’t love him. I felt for him like for brother not a lover. I told him I was very grateful for what he did for a person that he didn’t know. He was and always will be the closest person for me. I still remember his words : “I tried so hard to be someone you want.”
    2 years passed since then. And I was sitting in the train, going to another country, with a huge hope to start new life there. As we passed the crowded city and were going through the filed a small teardrop rolled down my cheek.  So many memories were left in this city and ought to be there forever. Anyways I was very grateful for the experience it gave me.

“Hi, I’m Joe. I just saw you were crying, and I thought if I could help you.”
we talked a lot with Joe. But you’ll never know if we fell in love or stayed strangers. Married or never met again. I won’t tell you, just because it was a start of the whole new story to tell.